MY TESTIMONY...

it a working progress...

im taking my time & allowing God to takeover

{His words, His will...Not mine}

i use to love her/ speaking of the world mother nature/

i use to fein for her approval/her affection/

but everything she stands for makes me sick/

cuz everything she stands for is just so wicked/

i thought i needed her to feel this void/

but everything of the world i thought was it/ did nothing

but destroy my soul/ bit by bit/ im at the end this is it/

i have nothing to show but bruises and scares from our relationship/

and i know she wants me back/ but i refuse/

i refuse to go back to the/

drinkin/ the partyin/ ol dudes lips & his whips/

because all i can see is

that whip that split and slit Christ back they ripped/

and its a shame/ cuz

im the one responsible for his pain/

every time i lied to him/ Lord i swear

this is the last time/ Lord i swear ill never lie, drink, or fornicate again/

basically i just put the nails through his hands/

and i must admit it became a habit/

he was the one i called on ONLY when i needed help/

so i might as well have finished the job myself/

put the nails in his feet/ the thorns in his head/

doing it repeatedly making sure he was dead/

but you see even that didnt matter to me/

as long as on Sundays people thought i was free/

or as long as on sundays i was "acting like the woman God created me to be"/

the Eve to his Adam/ the woman of his land/

but i was more focused on finding

that fairytale love/ walking hand and hand on the sand/ when truth be told/

the love that i needed died long ago/

for the exact same sins that can

call you right now and you'd be ready to go/ the sad part is/

i said i would NEVER FIT IN/

but the only thing that set me apart were the fits that i was in/

i thought that i was the one who deserved praise/

taking the price that was paid

for granted/ living like i was the only one who didnt deserve HELL/

to be continued....

-Abstract