MY LOVE HAS ARRIVED...

Are you saved ? YES By/Through the bLood of Jesus Christ ? NO; i cant take that ride... and for this im left on the side/ side of the road; i watched as sin, lust, idolatry, adultery, & i cant forget PRIDE...bye bye boasting, showing off, dictating what i did according to peoples reactions;... drive further & further away from me. God is my tow truck; so its okay ; because my HELP IS ON THE WAY :)


MY HELP/MY LOVE HAS ARRIVED....

when i think of you i smile; my heart smiles. in unison. when i think of you i get that fluttery feeling; butterflies. your always on my mind and your name constantly escapes my lips. while your words rests in my soul. my heart is becoming a replica of yours, my eyes see what you want them to see, my feet go where you lead them; and i happily follow. my hands my arms raise as high as they can; just one of the ways to let you know I LOVE YOU, I NEED YOU, I BREATHE YOU as you breathe life into me. cold blue. your love has revived me; this love is divine. this is more than my emotions. this is all truth. you found me & you rescued me. from a world deeper than the ocean floors, they told me i was Deep because i could write; they were Right, i was Deep into a pen full of lies. i compromised, and scrutinized my way deeper & deeper into my demise. yet still i rise; not on my own, because i was ready to Give up. but because this love we now have was pre destined to come to pass. only things that i do with you will last. you are my EVERYTHING :) falling in love with you has been the best thing ive ever done. you are my first & my last, my beginning, and my end, you are my way, my truth, and you are my LIFE. i will be patient; there's no rush. i will be kind, i will not envy or boast, i will not be arrogant or rude, Not my way; but i will follow yours, no resentment, i will accept your correction, and rejoice when i am corrected, i will bear whatever i can handle; because you know just what i can :) i will believe, hope, and endure ALL things. because (Lord, God, Jesus, Christ, Good Shepherd, Messiah, King of Kings, Prince Of Peace, Lord of Lords, Redeemer, Savior, Creator, Provider, Protector, THE REAL JEHOVAH, father, Holy Spirit, Yaweh...) YOU MEAN MORE THAN THE WORLD TO ME !!



Dear; Sin, Satan, World "ITS OVER" there's nothing that you can say, do, or give me that'll make me come back. ive found true love; and im holding on for dear life; because my life depends on it YOU'VE ETERNALLY LOST ONE -Artisha Nicole Ivey-

i am NOT ashamed...

This is NOT for the SELF RIGHTEOUS; This is for the SINNERS who have recognized that they need a SAVIOR...you may know God; but is your heart & your life style allowing God to know you...i'm not here to Judge; that's Gods job. but i am here to share my testimony. OBEDIENCE is better than SACRIFICE...

so your doing good in school, making money, "doing something with yourself/life"; congrats...sad part is you putting more into ya career, yourself, ya reputation than your putting into your final destination ! Oh you the flyest; congrats. sad part is you worried more about ya rims, ya bling, ya clothes than you are ya soul. Just bcuz you go to church every Sunday, sing in the choir, ya daddy, ya mama, ya granny, are ministers...DOES NOT mean your going to Heaven. God doesn't care about your works. He cares about whats in your heart. We use the phrase "God Knows My Heart" so lightly; the bible says in Jeremiah 17:9 (The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?) if you were honest about the things that were truly in your heart Or for that matter apart of your lifestyle. You would know that neither are pleasing to God. i don't care who you are; you are NOT exempt from death Nor are you exempt from Judgment. These things here on earth are T E M P O R A R Y....i repeat T E M P O R A R Y; that dude/woman you idolizing, that car you drive, that house/apartment you live in, your style, your swag, your abilities, sex, money, fame, celebrity status; ALL T E M P O R A R Y. & when your standing before GOD; its NOT going to matter. So i say its time to start choosin up; the WORLD or GOD. Its simple. EITHER YOUR OF OR YOUR OUT; OF THE WORLD or your OPPOSING it. BUT its to hard to serve God; but truth is the only thing holding us back is "FEAR OF MAN" you can say your not scurred of nothing..but if you care what others think of you or what they might say. or your not doing something, wearing something, going somewhere bcuz you don't wanna be embarrassed; Whatever the case may be...YOUR SCARED ! what you really should be afraid of is how this world is destroying you BIT by BIT. you see the enemy is very subtle and patient. and a lot of the times "we follow our hearts" right into what the devil has set up. and we're so blind to the truth that we don't even know its him setting us up to FAIL. nothing Good come out of Sin (wickedness, darkness) while your still in it and enjoying it; that's like you trying to squeeze water out of sand. its impossible. unless of course God chooses to make that happen (yes; he's that good) the only way out is through the blood of Jesus Christ; and think about it; if we all were not "that bad" why would he have come to earth to become a pure, holy, blameless MAN (the only man who can call himself a savior; EVER) & die a gruesome and painful death; FOR OUR SINS. if it wasn't that serious !! I'M GOING TO BE REAL; i not to long ago in my life went hard for the world & thought i was OK because i waited until i was 20 to lose my virginity, i didn't really do bad things like kill, went to church on Sunday, & through out the week, wrote facebook post about him, blogged about him...i actually convinced myself that the drinking, smoking, fornication, lust, idolatry, parties, pride, attention seeking, vain,and the list goes on Artisha Nicole Ivey i use to be; was just me having "FUN" & living my life to the fullest. even tried to convince myself that i was happy ; but i can remember how i always felt a void; all these things i did was me trying to fill a place that only God can fill; let me tell you something you can NOT fix something that was meant to be mended by God... i learned the hard way; went from a lot of things to Nada. But truth is i gained so much more. (happiness, joy, peace.....) & i'm not saying that now i'm perfect because i'm far from it; i still face a lot of temptation, but i now have the key to going through a situation; without having to GO THROUGH; & JESUS CHRIST is that key, & i'm not saying that the walk with God is easy bcuz it isn't, i personally Lost friends, family, followers. lol i mean you name it i've probably lost it. but i've gained CHRIST; the one who loves me so much that through my sins, through the times i hated him, through the times when i could careless about what he did for me. HE KEPT ME, PROTECTED ME, CALLED ME, STAYED WITH ME...his Love is everlasting; it NEVER ENDS, EVER !! that alone makes me want to surrender EVERYTHING to him. ive been delivered & set free so that's why i can walk around with this "EX" on my chest (Ex-Diva, Ex-Narcissist, Ex-fornicator, Ex-Masturbator, Ex-Hypocrite, Ex-Liar, Ex-Conformist, Ex-Pharisee, Ex-Rebel, Ex-Failure, Ex-Slave, Ex-Deceiver...this WAS me; but i died to myself & allowed God to consume my life; & in me he reigns supreme =) !! (Sin can only take you deeper, & deeper & deeper. truth is there is no limit to what you'll do when your in sin...even the ones in that "things ill never do" list) Tomorrow, next month, 5mins from now is NOT promised to anyone; not even our President; God has given us so many chances, yet we still think we have time WE DON'T; YOUR SOUL IS ON THE LINE HERE !! so choose; GET RIGHT; WHEN EVERYONE'S GONE LEFT or OR GET LEFT; WHEN EVERYONE'S GONE =) God Loves you;

ITS TIME TO STAND UP...

While we as Christians are sitting around
waiting for things to happen; instead of
going out & spreading the Gospel; things like this are
getting people's attention & for those of you who think the
Bible isnt true. why would they want to take it away from you
so bad; to the point where they're desperate.
willing to whatever they can to make sure you
dont hold the truth; STAND; & when you do, STAND FIRM...
LETS GO !!!! NO GAMES..

the things of the world are WORTHLESS...

For some reason God has put in my
HEART to share my devotions...
so here is another...

(Phillipians 3:1-11)

The sacrafice Christ made when he came down to
earth to save me from Eternal Death. is exactly
what keeps me going each and every day
because i know what he's promised me.
Love, Peace, Joy, Wisdom, Protection, Happiness
that will never end, and the best of them all
Eternal Life In Heaven With Him =)

fact: i am free and liberated through Christ. I am no
longer in bondage. No longer captured by sin.

i remember a minister from my church (p4cm.com)
using this analogy...so ill kindof put it into my own words

"Like a monkey with his hand stuck in a bottle because
he wont let go of whats inside, only later to be captured"
(if only he would of just let go; he would've got away)

in my case; i LET GO of EVERYTHING sinful
EVERYTHING holding me back. even the "secret sins"
that we think no one know's about... pride, hate in our hearts, etc
forgetting that God is all seeing, all knowing...HE KNOWS what we
can HIDE from others..."IM FREE"

i may have lost all the things i valued or i thought
i couldnt live without. but compared to Christ and what
he done for me (and is still doing in my life) those THINGS
are nothing more than lint on black that can easily be
removed with a lint brush/roller and discarded into the garbage can.
never to be worried about again. so i guess you can say Christ
became my ling brush/roller. he removed every piece of lint (sin)
that was inappropriate for the person he has created me to become.

He's continuing to change my outlook on the things of this world
i thought i needed. i no longer go by what i think OR what i think
i know. but i go by every word God has spoken and still speaks to me.
i dont "just" follow instructions. but i have a personal relationship
with God, so i follow HIM. i have faith in the things God has done,
doing, and is going to do in the future. so im ready for whatever
satan/world throws my way, because God is almights and powerful
and he's on my side; so ive already WON...

(personal prayer...)
dear God i thank you for being just in everything you do.
i know that what you have promised those who know, trust, love, and follow you
is just you being modest. Lord i pray that you continue to show me who you are
and that you continue to show me myself (even when i dont like what i see;
especially when i dont like what i see) i ask that you continue to change me, that
you continue to give me an open heart to recieve the change. i ask that i fall inlove
with you again everday; make knowing you NEW to me every day/ each time
im in your word. help me to stay focused on you God. in Jesus name AMEN

PRAISE BREAK!

• I decided to make a list of the Top 10 songs a person should not listen to at work unless they are ready for a PRAISE BREAK…. I wish someone would have warned me…I was at work about to lift my hands and cry out to the LORD lol real spit
  
  Thirsty: Marvin Sapp
  Chasing After You: Tye Tribbett
  Worshiper: Marvin Sapp
  No Greater Love: Fred Hammond
  All I Have To Give: Mali Music
  It Would Take All Day: Kirk Franklin
  Hurricane : Jimmy Needham
  True Love: Phil Wickham
  Throne Room: Cece Winans
  Anything sang by Angelo and Veronica !!!!
  adt...
  

HELP...

i recently did a devotion on HELP
so i thought i would share it with you guys

most people i know struggle with Helping Others;
but i some how struggle with accepting the Help
God sends my way; when i need it...

(2Chronicles 32: 24-33)

You can have all the "things" in the world
but one day you may need a helping hand.
in this story Hezekiah was to Proud to except
the help God sent to him. In this case i am Hezekiah
i was so use to being the Helper; that when i needed
the Help i was to Proud to admit it, except it, and
rest in Gods word; knowing that he would provide and
Help me. it says in (James 4:6; God opposes the Proud
but gives Grace to the Humble)
Oppose- to act against or provide resistance to (verb)
Grace- the freely given, unmerited favor and Love of God
Humble- "NOT Proud" or Arrogant

i was so caught up in that "I'm independent" mindset
and i don't need anyone's Help.
that i allowed Pride to consume my actions.

i remember reading a quote from C.S. Lewis and one thing
that stuck out to me was "PRIDE leads to every other vice;
it is the complete ANTI-GOD state of mind"
we can walk around saying we Love God. but with even
a SPEC of Pride in our hearts. we are Totally 100%
AGAINST GOD !!

Contentment

Last night while reading Lies Women Believe by Nancy Leigh Demoss I realized that one of the lies I believe about God is that he alone isn’t enough. I recently did a study on what it meant to be content in Christ, and although I came across some amazing scriptures that stressed the importance of Christians trusting solely in the lord… my life style didn’t show that I understood what the scriptures expressed. As I read Lies Women Believe I started thinking about my mother and how painful it would be if she were to die. I know this is a touchy subject for most… I mean no one wants to think about a loved dieing…but it made me feel uneasy because I realized how much trust and dependency I put in my mom to guide and comfort me. I thought if God did see fit to call her home I would be alone…this isn’t true… if I am a child of God…God will ALWAYS be there…Even when my earthy mother isn’t…It will be painful, but I don’t have to feel alone because God my father said he will NEVER leave nor forsake me…Shelley(my mother) never promised me that…and although I grew up believing she did…that’s something she could never live up to…But Jesus Christ can and will be there to sustain me even in the mist of great lost…The idea of my mother dieing hunts me and is the scariest reality… but even scarier then that is professing that I am a Christian and not fully depending on him…I realized that a benefit of being in a relationship with Christ is that its ETERNAL… I had as dream last night and all though it was a tad bit strange (like most of my dreams) one thing in the dream really spoke to my spirit…in my dream I was being attacked …my life was in serious danger…it was dark…I began to cry out for help…my S.O.S cry filled the atmosphere …but no one… not one person responded…no one was in sight…I then began to cry out to the Lord… JESUS …JESUS…JESUS… then instantly I was shielded… This morning I realized that that’s how life is…I cry out for people and no one comes to my aide…anyone is in sight… But if I believe that Jesus is alive and the same spirit that rose Jesus from the dead on the third day lives in me…I AM NEVER ALONE… and when it seems there is no way out of trials, temptation, heart ache, pain, sickness, loneliness, self condemnation, darkness, I can simply call out to him and he will protect me… I can TRUST that GOD will never leave me…This is a dieing world and all that’s in it is dying…my friends, my family, my career, my plans, myself, but God is LIFE…and if I hold on to that truth regardless of how lonely I feel I can firmly stand!!!! And I can be CONTENT in my GOD and GOD alone…
(Jeremiah 17:5-7)

adt...

EX-SALESMAN

I have shared my testimony so many times in the past 5 months that now it almost feels like a routine sales pitch and the product is salvation....and that's exactly what i didn't want to happen...its amazing how iv managed to turn something that God has done in my life from mind boggling to cliche...I mean not only did he purchase my debt with his his blood he also took my place suffered the wrath of God... all while i the guilty walks away guiltless...amazing right? no its ATONEMENT...Gods grace and mercy...TRUE LOVE that saw fit to break the chains of homosexuality and hypocrisy in my life... all while building me up and and fulfilling scripture...but somewhere between me coming to Christ and purchasing my first ex shirt i lost sight of just how wonderful and truly honorable what took place on the cross really is...it took me a while to notice it of course ...i mean with all the church services and notes... the edifying fellowship... my band against secular music... i was fully convinced that i truly understood what the cross meant...but after several missed devotions and a recent convicting sermon on dedication i realized that my christian walk has become a sales pitch...see like a salesman i am familiar with the product... but i am so focused on trying to convince others to purchase... i never allow myself time to appreciate what the product can do for me in my life... and because its just a job and not a lifestyle and i still have to pay bills i have managed to pledge allegiance to other products in my personal life that i feel could do the same thing but be cheaper....have i lost you yet? i hope not but its like the fact that Jesus Christ has delivered me from so much is only thought about when I'm about to go witness and I'm sure not only did he deliver me from self destruction and eternal damnation so i can be a living testimony of his wondrous glory to others but he also did it so that i could remember who he is and how through him all things are made new....and lately i have been so consumed and focus on sharing my testimony with others I myself am no longer moved by it...i allowed my Testimony and all its power be drowned out by a few " God is greats" and " Girl let me tell you how God delivered me" that i was no longer moved by my own deliverance... and that's a harsh reality i didn't want to face until now... iv realized i was more dedicated to sharing my testimony then i was praising the one who gave me a testimony... true Pharisee... i guess now i can rock my EX-PHARISEE with all truth... its just crazy how i became more like a Pharisee after i bought my Ex-Pharisee shirt... the dope thing is even this is a testimony!!!! GOD IS SO DOPE!!!!

adt...

I WILL NOT LOSE....

ok...well ive been raised in church my whole life...my moms super in to church. and living with her i had no choice but to go...i know alot about what the bible says and what god wants us to do.but i never really listened; cuz i guess i wasnt ready to follow the "rules"...i was to busy having "FUN"...but when i was younger up until a couple months ago...i was soooo angry with my dad. my mom. bad relationships & just life itself....even with GOD at one point in time...i felt like i had nobody. nobody cared. and i just went cold. it was all about me. im not following nobodys rules.im not worrying about nobody. eff everybody & the world...i basically turned my back on god...i felt like even he didnt care...in my mind i was like...if god cared me and my dad would have a healthy relationship. my mom wouldnt be struggling the way she was. he wouldnt have taken away the closest ppl to me...blah blah blah but whats crazy was that even tho i turned my back on him. he never turned his on me...he was still protecting me. keeping me. and even speaking to me...one day i went to this youth service my friend invited me to...and the preacher was speaking to me. telling me what god wants me to do & the things i needed to do in order to..i guess you can say free of the pain and anger i was feeling...so i did it....& put GOD first COMPLETELY...not just saying it but doing it...and everything ive put my mind too has been successful...im happy all the time...& ive learned that while i was busy pleasing ppl...i shouldve been tryna please GOD...because in reality he's all that matters.....& life has just been AMAZING...

I realize now, that if i always have god on my side
iWIN =)

-Artisha Ivey

I WONT GIVE UP...

so last night i cried my self to sleep

& today im suuuuuper emotional

what the heck is in the air ???

or maybe i just could no longer

hold those emotions inside =/

ever felt like no matter how hard you try

nothing seems to work the way you'd like them to

i mean even when you understand that things are going

to happen when God wants them to & how God wants them to

but still frustrates me though...

the fact that for most people i come in contact

with; its easier to give money then it is to give LOVE

from

family--->to<---friends

:(

it hurts knowing that i give my all

EVERYTiME; only to get less than half

of someone...

but its ok; im going through a storm

now. but in the end ill see a rainbow :)

basically; DONT EVER GiVE UP

im thankful that i have God on

my side; he said he will never leave

nor forsake me. so i know if i have

no one i'll have my heavenly father.

in this world of temporary love

"God is all i'll ever need"

his love is everlasting.

-when your feeling down; look to God

to cheer you up, comfort you, hold you,

encourage you, look to him for EVERYTHING :)

PUSH...pray until something happens

(God hears you)

-Artisha Ivey

BRANDNEW

i just have to share this with you guys...

i know ive been m.i.a. but ive been working

on some things; & Gods been working on Me

b u s y. b u s y. b u s y

IM A NEW CREATURE IN CHRIST

SO YES; EVERYTHING IM DOING

IS BRANDNEW...

man; GOD is soooo good

i moved back with my mom

bcuz alot of things were going on

where i was; & God had been dealing with

me for awhile about staying with her for a minute

but ofcourse i kept running... finally i listened :)

anyways;

i started going to this church call

"Passion for Christ Movement" {P4CM}

and OMG; its changed my life tremendously

THANK GOD HE SENT ME THERE

but ive changed so much...

i always talked about God & how good he was

yadah. yadah. yadah

but in No; way. shape. or form

was i living it...yes; i WAS a HYPOCRITE

talking the talk; but no walking involved

BUT...im the EX-HYPOCRITE now

i literally went cold turkey on SIN

no more parties, drinking, boasting, being prideful...

& the list goes on !!

& im not saying im PERFECT

bcuz im far from that

but it finally hit me...

i was claiming to love Christ BUT

i was loving EVERYTHiNG he hates

{your either HOT or your COLD}

theres NO in between

NEVER AGAiN;

will i take CHRIST DYiNG on the Cross

for my sins Lightly...

the WORLD is NOT worth me losing

my soul over; at all

everything is only temporary anyway

i can go on 4 days...but ill end it hear

this just goes to show that

JESUS SAVES...

oh; & you dont think Christ exsist

well i can get into that discussion too :)

-Artisha Ivey

MY TESTIMONY...

it a working progress...

im taking my time & allowing God to takeover

{His words, His will...Not mine}

i use to love her/ speaking of the world mother nature/

i use to fein for her approval/her affection/

but everything she stands for makes me sick/

cuz everything she stands for is just so wicked/

i thought i needed her to feel this void/

but everything of the world i thought was it/ did nothing

but destroy my soul/ bit by bit/ im at the end this is it/

i have nothing to show but bruises and scares from our relationship/

and i know she wants me back/ but i refuse/

i refuse to go back to the/

drinkin/ the partyin/ ol dudes lips & his whips/

because all i can see is

that whip that split and slit Christ back they ripped/

and its a shame/ cuz

im the one responsible for his pain/

every time i lied to him/ Lord i swear

this is the last time/ Lord i swear ill never lie, drink, or fornicate again/

basically i just put the nails through his hands/

and i must admit it became a habit/

he was the one i called on ONLY when i needed help/

so i might as well have finished the job myself/

put the nails in his feet/ the thorns in his head/

doing it repeatedly making sure he was dead/

but you see even that didnt matter to me/

as long as on Sundays people thought i was free/

or as long as on sundays i was "acting like the woman God created me to be"/

the Eve to his Adam/ the woman of his land/

but i was more focused on finding

that fairytale love/ walking hand and hand on the sand/ when truth be told/

the love that i needed died long ago/

for the exact same sins that can

call you right now and you'd be ready to go/ the sad part is/

i said i would NEVER FIT IN/

but the only thing that set me apart were the fits that i was in/

i thought that i was the one who deserved praise/

taking the price that was paid

for granted/ living like i was the only one who didnt deserve HELL/

to be continued....

-Abstract